hmmm. i think ive been getting along better with my parents this week.
*read: HEADLINE NEWS*
ok. sorry. i know.

but i cant help it.
say what you want: rebellious/angst/teenage PHASE (how i hate that word)
im me. i can never be someone else.
not another jolyne, another edna, another shari.
cos im me.
i dunno. i find it hard to accept sometimes. so i dun blame you if you (not a reference just to my parents) wished that i was someone else.

and ive gotta learn to take things at face value.
not care so much what this world thinks of me.
so long that i can face up to myself, what i do, and take responsibility for my actions.
a heated porcelain angel will just crack in the heat.
try for smthg more fluid.
and its true wad elle says that at the spur of the moment we can feel so reckless and cruel to just hurt.
take pleasure in hurting.
sadistic nature innate stonewalling.
you never got past it did you.

congratulations for the one week peace.
so you think you know me now?
naivety wins the game in the end.